Oh goodness ladeh

I obviously missed out a whole lot of that bloggie woggie for a while (though most of the stuff we kinda talked about)

But like reading it made me feel the same way, but it also made me feel a little sad, as I wasn’t able to be there to rant about it with you :(

It does feel a little lonely these days, it may just be because of the fact that I barely have anytime to hang out (though I’m always craving for it… Seriously, the night before my models were due, I wanted to get out so much that I ended up procrastinating by BAKING A BLOODY CAKE!!!!, I know right? Me, bake a cake….)

Anyways I have so much to say, but my thoughts are all muddled up right now after reading like 4- blogs in a row… Lol

BTW

The sharing bit as a group for COYL made me feel really uncomfortable, it felt a little forced… Did you notice? I was like tearing up… LOL

Bye

Yo yo yo!

Long time no bloggie la!!!!! >.<

Hmm… Today’s post is once again totally and utterly irrelevant nonsensu desu!!!

Yeah man! That’s right! Even though most of you might of realised this by now, but I would like to officially announce it to the online world that I am a BIG FAT OTAKU!!!! Oh yeah *wink wink*

Nah nah nah guys calm down I won’t baffle you with another long ass list of anime/manga this time :) I just wanted to post a little something about a manga that I recently reread ;)

Title?

Watashitachi no shiawase jikan

Meaning you say?!

Our happy times :)

So like summary… (totally like just copy and pasted this from a random website teehee)

“I have something I don’t want to lose—
So much so that these terrible feelings have grown.”

A pianist who attempted suicide 3 times, Juri, is taken to help her aunt at a prison where murderers who killed indiscriminately are sentenced to death. There, she meets a man named Yuu who took the lives of 3 people. A mother’s antagonism—a brother’s death… Together they embrace the violent rebellion in their hearts caused by the large, deep scars they carry. However, before long, they both embrace an earnest hope in their hearts. “I want to live”…

So like yeah sounds like a sappy sop story but like NOOOO please don’t think that >.<

I was bawling my eyes out at the very end!!!!! Very melancholic…yet realistic… Which was why it was even sadder >:(

So like now I’m going to picture spam you :D

Hmm so like yeah…

I got too lazy to post or write anything else so like…

Goodnights!! LOL

:)

So like you know, I abandoned this place and left it rusting for a VERY long time, but I’m back once again to give blogging another shot! :)

Had a talk with two friends the other day, and it made me feel so idiotic and ignorant after some thinking to myself, because it made me realise how much effort I put into getting to know the people around me more than skin deep… which is sadly enough not a lot.

Learning more about another person really makes you realise just how much you don’t actually know them. You think you know them but in reality when you think about it, you barely know anything.

Made me realise that I really need to put more effort into showing the people around me that I care about them, and that I do want to get to know them. It was pretty eye opening, coz I just remember thinking to myself, “Wow, I had no idea… How ignorant of me…”

I can see that the problem with my only skin deep relationships are my fault. I don’t make much of an effort to get to know people, I don’t make an effort to try to crack their shell, and I’m too stubborn to crack out of my own shell either, on top of that I have trust issues and quiet a few insecurities as well. But like doesn’t everyone have those problems?

It’s just that I find it near impossible to even open up to anyone, which is probably why nearly all my relationships (excluding a few… Most likely under 5…) are only just scrapping the surface, and I guess I’m just making excuses up for myself, but I do know that a lot of people don’t take me serious because of what they think they know about me, based on what they see of me, which is pretty much you know my ‘usual’ self hahah.

I suppose they don’t realise that I’m also human and that like everyone else, I have many different sides to me. I suppose that out of the group of friends only one person knows this about me.

Wow, somewhat lonely aye? Only one person really knows about the real me. HAhahaha

But then again, I don’t mind heheh I like keeping to myself anyways so its all good

But in all seriousness, I MUST MAKE MORE OF AN EFFORT in nurturing the relationships that I have with the people around me, because I know, I am atrocious at it, so please forgive me.

It will be awkward and weird for me, but because we are people that were made for companionship (one of the few things that really mattered in life according to Solomon in Ecclesiastes) I shall chip my shell a little to allow little speckles of light in slowly :) So please be patient.

Anyways

I totally just rambled on and off topic about weird stuff.

Hehehehe

See ya!

;)